If You're Struggling To Have Your Life Altogether

Please know that you are not the only one going through the same battle.

It’s been months now since you decided to silence your thoughts. How are you?

Are you still struggling with your sentiments, trying to have your life all figured out? Are you always seeking for answers on how to follow your desires? Without feeling the stung of those piercing words from people who want you to “do this and do that”?

I don’t know if you have noticed this, but it’s already penetrating your internal self, poisoning you inside. 

I understand the struggle when you are pushed to do things you are not that passionate to put your heart and soul into it.

If only you have that safety net that would allow you to leave places and people right away, every time learning and self-growth is no longer there. Most notably on time, you were on the fringes.

Still, you can’t afford to have that freedom. Not yet.

I know you’re tired of catching up with society’s standards. Like why do you have to feel you are dejected and defeated every second you won’t conform to their usual?

If only this society is fully aware that they are creating mirage and distorted images in our minds. That it’s not helping anyone grow into who they are.

Is there anyone reading this right now who has his/her life altogether in its entirety?

Because it seems like each one of us is always searching, wandering, anxious and eager to find our very own plot in the greater scheme of life.

If only life has its direct steps to follow. Like no reading between the lines, no digging beneath parables and metaphors, or no winding and twisting of words. 

If only life has already revealed to us the path that we need to struggle first. Before reaching the destination that can make our hearts and minds at peace.  

If only life is that simple. Like all the tools and resources are already given — no need for searching, finding, and hunting. 

People are so good at hiding, especially when it comes to sharing to the world how contented we are of what we have.

We’ve been wearing this mask ever since to hide our anxieties, skepticism, humiliations and lack of confidence. We’ve been dealing this one, and we’re so afraid to let it out. Also, no one wants to talk about it.

Why?

Because we were so accustomed to sharing only the sparkling pieces of our lives, the shimmering happenings of our joys and success, and all other instances that might give other people an idea that we’re living the life we wanted.

Sad.

Moreover, we only broadcast a picture-perfect scene with rainbows and flowery words. So we rather hide the terrible parts, the horrific events and life episodes where sadness, failure and disappointments are the highlights. 

Because no one wants to hear it, and no one wants to put their concern over it. People see someone’s vulnerability as their weakness. And they don’t like it. They never will.

So, we learned to settle on watching other people expose a flawless and faultless life while we sit in the murky corners of our discouragement and despair — all this time - when we should be having words of support and encouragement. 

I know you’re tired. Drained. Because you still haven’t figured your life out. I understand. I want you to know that you are not the only one going through the same struggle. Time and again, I happened too.

However, if we can be brave enough to talk about it, we can somehow make our lives less lonely and puzzled. Just keep going until we can all figure it out.

Hold on.

  

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MALIPAYONG JOSEFINA

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